I surrender all

1. All to Jesus I surrender;
   All to Him I freely give;
   I will ever love and trust Him,
   In His presence daily live.
   • Refrain:
     I surrender all,
     I surrender all;
     All to Thee, my blessed Savior,
     I surrender all.
2. All to Jesus I surrender;
   Humbly at His feet I bow,
   Worldly pleasures all forsaken;
   Take me, Jesus, take me now.
3. All to Jesus I surrender;
   Make me, Savior, wholly Thine;
   Let me feel the Holy Spirit,
   Truly know that Thou art mine.
4. All to Jesus I surrender;
   Lord, I give myself to Thee;
   Fill me with Thy love and power;
   Let Thy blessing fall on me.
5. All to Jesus I surrender;
   Now I feel the sacred flame.
   Oh, the joy of full salvation!
   Glory, glory, to His Name!

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Do you surrender all? I have been struggling for years regarding my job. Some of it I have acknowledged on this blog. And yet here I still sit, paralyzed in fear of the unknown.  

This Lenten season, I am going to try and surrender this fear to God. Put my trust in him. Try to listen to what he wants for me. Sitting at my desk and running job searches and thinking of what-might-have-been is only driving me crazy. I am a hamster on a wheel. Generalized Anxiety Disorder is in full force. 

Someone said to me the other day that anxiety will never disappear as long as we are trying to control it all. As of Ash Wednesday, 2015, I will attempt to learn to surrender.  Let the journey begin.