Wednesday, July 23, 2014

What makes you feel alive?

I am going through a midlife crisis form of depression lately. My husband says I am too young to be experiencing such, but the interwebs say it is possible and the nets don't lie.  I know I am because the four walls around me at work are closing in tighter and tighter every day. I have come to realize that my life will be a "meh" one as far as accomplishment, I am not Ghandi or Mother Teresa, or even Oprah. I have no Wiki page. When I die, my name will not live on. It will die as those who remember me die out. 

No, I am not suicidal. Just contemplative.  

For now, I have resolved to do as many things as I can to feel alive while I am relatively young (38) and healthy. One day I might have a stroke and not even be able to smile evenly, so I am going to make it a point to smile more now.  Here is a list of other things that help me to feel alive. I invite you to try them withe me. 

1. Running. Especially in the rain, feeling my body in motion while surrounded by God's gift of nature.

2. Stretching. With my hands up way above my head, and releasing a big breath and loud sigh as my hands fall down.

3. Loving. Feeling my heart wanting to explode out of my chest as I smell my little girl's hair, hug on my growing son, or lay my head on my on my husbands shoulder.

4. Dancing. Letting my limbs fly awkwardly around as I enjoy my favorite tunes. One of my favorite lyrics is from Third Eye Blind, "The four right chords can make me cry." Yes, but they can also lift me up to a place of elation. 

5. Laughing.  Enjoying those moments with friends where you laugh so hard you can't catch your breath, and know you are having one of those moments that are rare and to be cherished. 

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