Focus on God

I remember when I started this year's entries I promised not to kick myself for not posting every day. I have still felt guilty when I skip a few days, but what I have noticed is regardless of whether or not I am writing my thoughts down, I am keeping my focus on God.  It is amazing actually how much more I think about Him and His presence in my life.  I have been conscious of how kind I am to others daily and whether or not I am doing unto others etc.  What it really has done is made me think of the other 325 days of the year that I am not focused on God.

I read something the other day about those gap years when the majority of us who grew up in the church drop out. Those years after your parents stop making you go- maybe high school but most certainly college years. Those years where you slack and just live without getting up on Sunday's to go to church. Then we return to the church and God as we age and get married and have children. I began to reflect back on my own gap years. Those 4 years I spent at UGA.  What if I had died then? I feel so guilty thinking about it now.  I have tried not to think about what a bad believer I was back then. Not only did I not go to church, pray, read the Bible, etc, I went out drinking and partying all of the time. I pushed God to the side so that I could have fun and live with "no regrets." Hmmm.

Today I am so glad that I lived long enough to come full circle. I realize that I am damaged and made mistakes, but I have clearly learned from them. I am still continuing to learn today. This Lenten season, I am learning a LOT.  I am learning that I can focus on God and still have a life.  As a working mother of two, I have often felt too busy to read the Bible, or do an independent motivational. But I am learning I not too busy for it. In fact, it has been easy for me to look for God in my daily life. I can see him when I am looking for random acts of kindness to perform: I see others doing acts of kindness while I am on the prowl.  I find articles on blogs and FB posts that remind me to focus on God. I listen to NPM sermons online when I have downtime. The History Channel is showing a wonderful series my husband and I have been watching on the Bible.  It goes to show that God is present in our lives every day. We just have to keep our eyes and hearts open. I am so glad that I have chosen to add on something during Lent the past two years. This blog. This focus.